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It’s heeeerrrrreeeee!

by Myg on May 23, 2010

You want to read it, right? Right?

Okay, well let me explain a little about it.

It is a Twilight fan fiction. That’s right. A Twilight. Fan. Fiction.

It’s intended for:

  • Adults, women  probably, who love Twilight
  • Adults who love the idea of  a vampire romance fantasy story but didn’t like Twilight so much
  • Those of us who devoured Twilight but had to tell our inner literary critics to STFU the entire time (this is the category I fell into).

What if Twilight was written for grown women instead of teen girls? By me?

Osa Bella is the answer. If you are curious, please check it out over at Twitarded and leave a comment. If you’d like a .pdf and a bunch of geeked out extras, you can visit Osa Bella at home here.

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Oh my, it’s been a whole motherfucking month since I’ve posted here? Shy of six days, an entire month? What can I say?

I have been writing a fan fiction novel on Twilight. Writing this thing has been totally absorbing. And educational. On many levels. And it has been a great bit of escapism, one of my greatest escapes of all time. One thing I now know about myself? I can write a novel. It would be nice if I’d write one that wasn’t using someone else’s intellectual property, sure. But at least I wrote one.  And those of you who are curious to read it will get your chance starting tomorrow over at Twitarded.

It’s called Osa Bella and it was written for women who read the Twilight saga and/or saw the films (men too, if they are so inclined) and fell hard for the romance between Edward and Bella but had this nagging voice in the back of their mind saying, would a character as fantastic (and old) as Edward Cullen really want to be with a high school chick? Really?

I work with high school girls, and I can tell you, he would not.

So this story is basically Twilight, but with the twist that Edward meets Bella when she’s an adult. She’s lived a little. Has some baggage. And some other shit happens. Also, sex. Not as much as other fanfics. This story is not about lemons. But there are some lemons in key places where they need to be.

No analysis for you as to why I’ve been obsessively writing this. There are two reasons. 1. It was fucking fun and absorbing, like a good paper towel or feminine hygiene product. 2. It gave me a break from grieving. Forgive my spotty mood from here on out. I think it’s gonna be awhile before I right myself completely.

Also. FFFOOORRRKKKSSS. I am going.  I can’t believe it, but I am going. September 30th, with the Twitarded family. It will be insane. And you should come. Hit the Twitarded link for details.

Love, cupcakes, and lots of good “hey, it’s the weekend!” sex with your loved one.

Myg

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I’m sorry Stephenie

by Myg on April 13, 2010

I’m sorry, Stephenie Meyer.

I’ve trashed you here a few times for being a bad writer. I know, I’m late to a very big party.  And I also know that you have a gazillion dollars in the bank from the royalties, have probably had tea with Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart and throngs upon throngs of adoring followers who will buy and read anything you ever write. So you must not give a shit about what one sort of bitter woman in NJ would write, right?

Well, today I got to thinking about all that and how I would feel if it was me. Because, Stephenie Meyer, I am writing a fanfic for Twilight that is reaching epic proportions (okay, not saga length, but big for a fanfic) and I hope to get it out there in the world soon and am now realizing that people might actually read it, and what if somebody out there thinks I suck as a writer?

Because I’m telling you now, somebody will.

And if I read “she sucks!” even just one time, it won’t matter if thousands of people love it. I will obsess about that hate. Because that’s my nature.

Stephenie, if that’s your nature too, let me tell you how sorry I am. I really mean it.

Let me tell you something else.

I love Twilight. I read this at a point in my life when I really, desperately needed a fantasy to escape into so I could forget some very painful real life shit that was going down. I became absorbed, wholly, in your world.

Thank you for creating that world for us. I don’t care how flawed it is, honest. It brought me a lot of happiness and it inspired me to write over 100,000 words (and counting) of my own version of this tale. And my writing, I promise you, is not going to wow anyone with any kind of love of literature.

Today when Billy Burke stopped by (omfg, he didn’t, no, yes he did) Twitarded, (the most excellent Twilight related blog on the net), I realized that sometimes famous people read the shit that’s written about them in blogs. If I was famous, I know I would. And I would be bothered, too much, by the criticism.

I’m not saying it’s unfair, or somehow not right, or not useful to criticize icons of popular culture such as Twilight. I’m just saying that I don’t want to make you feel bad, Stephenie. And I know you will never in a million years read this, and even if you did, you would not likely give a shit. I would certainly hope not.

But just in case, I want you to know I’m sorry for the smack talk about your writing. And I want you to know that I thank you, a lot, for Twilight.

Love,

Myg

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SPOILER ALERT

If you haven’t seen this movie and you want to, you probably shouldn’t be reading this post. I’m going to tell you how it ends. Right now. Go away if you don’t want to know! Last chance! Okay then, you asked for it.

All day, part of my mind has been working on why I was so angry that Remember Me invoked 9/11 at the end of the movie as a plot device to kill Robert Pattinson’s character (Tyler Harkin).  I tweeted my ire. I left an angry comment in the discussion thread at Twitarded.  I was fucking hopped up about it. And my feeling was, yes, if Remember Me was a person with testicles instead of a poorly constructed drama featuring some of the finest eye candy this side of Hollywood, I would punch it in the balls.

Here’s why.

If you’re going to feature the tragedy at the World Trade Center on 9/11 in your movie, please don’t tack it on in the last five minutes and treat it superficially. If you do, I’m going to nut punch you because those people who died there, those people who loved them, and those people who survived it? They deserve better. I just feel that the magnitude of that catastrophe must be respected in all representations. And it wasn’t here.

Tyler’s story line ends just before he realizes he’s going to die in the World Trade Center. You see him staring out the window, you know the date, you understand what’s about to happen to him. But he doesn’t know it yet. And that’s the last we see of him. The point of view then conveniently shifts to the other characters’ reactions to the planes hitting and their loss of Tyler. And then it all nicely ends with their subsequent recovery and the positive transformation of their lives, ostensibly because of 9/11 and the lessons they learned. All this in maybe five minutes of film.

Let me ask this. If Tyler is the main protagonist and Remember me is his story, why stop telling it right at its most painful, terrifying point? Tyler didn’t die in that final scene of him standing in the window. We know he’s going to live several more excruciating, horrifying moments, or even longer, right? So why doesn’t the movie stay with him for those last horrific moments? Why are we, the viewers, spared that nightmare? Don’t you wish you could see what those terrifying final moments were like for Tyler?

Of course you fucking don’t. Nobody in their right mind does.

So then, if we can’t deal with the most painful aspects of 9/11, why are we dealing with it here at all? If you want to go there, then fucking go there and do it justice. But if the very real experiences of the human beings who died in that nightmare are too painful for this movie, just don’t fucking go there.  I promise you, you can tell a compelling “love your family” and “live for the moment” story without using that terrible tragic day to do it.

Let me clarify something important here. If Remember Me included more graphic, poignant Tyler death scenes, I would have probably hurt someone. Thank God they didn’t do that in the movie.

What I’m trying to say is this. If you want to make a movie about 9/11, then deal with the real 9/11. The one where people died in unimaginably terrifying ways, the one where families, children, husbands and wives waited and waited and waited and tried not to imagine that their loved ones suffered such an unthinkable end. The one where those who survived had their lives destroyed and fought every day with all they had just to fucking go on in spite of it. Those people are heroes, and their stories are well worth telling.

By tacking 9/11 on as the surprise ending to this film, Remember Me failed miserably at conveying the magnitude of that day.  It showed some sad characters getting their lives together, like 9/11 helped them resolve their little neuroses and get their priorities straight and fucking hell folks, it just didn’t work like that for most people. People went on, yes. But it was a heart breaking struggle. It was painful. None of that comes through the ending here. And plenty of people had their lives destroyed forever because of it.

I guess what I’m saying is that there are so many real, compelling stories of 9/11 that should be told. But 9/11 was the defining moment in those narratives, not the convenient plot twist.

This is just how I feel. If you felt differently about the movie, I respect that. I’m honestly glad that some people were moved by it. It’s just not how I felt, or how I was affected and I don’t believe for a moment there’s one right opinion on this. There’s just all of us, you know? All of us out here buying movie tickets and having an experience and sharing it on the internet.

I will say this. Remember Me affected me enough to *PTMFS. And that’s not nothing.

*Post This Mother Fucking Shit, a term coined by Snarkier Than You and Jenny Jerkface over at Twitarded.

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Eclecticism, revisited

by Myg on March 11, 2010

Just wanted to remind you all that I am still a mother. Those two heart breakers above would be the proof, along with the growing crop of grays at my temples and the bags beneath my eyes. They are 13, approaching 14 months, and yeah. Big. Beautiful. New and wondrous every day. Magic in their own right.

What the hell do kids this age eat? Anyone? I mean besides Cheerios. My kids eat anything and everything, it’s not that, it’s just that I’m in a rut, and I don’t know how small I have to cut their food up anymore. I read other parents do crazy things like give their toddlers a whole strawberry. Madness. Mine get strawberries cut into Cheerio sized pieces. It’s time consuming as hell, and plus I just don’t want to be one of those parents cutting their son’s chicken fingers up for them when they’re in high school, you know? I’m kidding. My kids don’t eat chicken fingers. Unless they’re pureed.

We do give them whatever we eat ourselves, aside from things with nuts or sesame seeds because I don’t know, everybody says if you feed a child a peanut before they’re 23 years old they’ll turn to stone. Or something incredibly scary like that. Yes, allergies. My understanding is that all the research on allergies now says that waiting to introduce foods doesn’t do shit. I find more and more I don’t trust a damned thing doctors tell us to do, but I’m not paranoid. Much.

On the fanfic all I can tell you is I didn’t finish it on 2/26, like I promised. I did hit the 50,000 word mark by then, but it wasn’t done. I finished it, or so I thought, last week at around 80,000 words, but then the ending wasn’t quite right, so I had to go add another chapter. Now I’m doing a once-through read, and then I think it may find a home somewhere in Twilblog world. I am not going to post the damned thing to fanfic.net because for some reason they just don’t like pr0n there anymore, and my fanfic has some parts to it that are for 18+ eyes and sensibilities. Really, it’s written for that intensely interesting class of Twilight fans who are women over 30, of which I am a member.

Did I tell you that I am a Twilight fan? It’s their fault.  I don’t know how this could be, because the writing is fucking horrible, I’m sorry. The stories are fairly lame as well. And you know what? The characters can suck it, as well, with the exception of Edward Cullen, who is largely written like a tool, but who has so much potential you could write about him forever and ever and ever. Poor Robert Pattinson. He’ll never be rid of the Edward Cullen aura. Cedric who?

On the new Eclipse trailer, I don’t want to be a wench, but I am really sort of dreading the movie. That’s because a) the book was fucking horrible and b) the trailer points to the fact that 1. the book is lame as shit and 2. there is far, far too much murmuring by the characters. Watch that trailer and all you can think is, what the hell is wrong with Edward and Jacob? These guys fucking murmur every line in the damned movie trailer, and I sure as shit hope they don’t murmur their asses all the way through Eclipse.

Damn you straight to hell, Stephenie Meyer.

We played another show at Maxwell’s in Hoboken (Jersey for those of you who aren’t from around here) and it kicked ass. I’m not saying we kicked ass, but I am saying it kicked ass. It was really great to be on the Maxwell’s stage again. First time in 8 years ftw. I don’t know what any of it means in terms of some kind of musical future, only that the future looms large and we’re stepping forward into it.

Other things in life are really ass kicking these days. I’ll talk more about that later. Trust me, you can wait.

My birthday is Sunday. If anyone would like to send me large sums of cash, now is as good a time as any.

And on that note.

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Well, this is embarrassing.

by Myg on February 11, 2010

So, I would have a lot to tell you about what’s been going on since the boys turned 1, but that would require that I actually be somewhat coherent and observant and present in my own life, and that’s just not been the case.

Since January 26, four days after their birthday, I’ve been obsessively writing something that was starting out as a silly story about a certain teen saga, and it has sort of turned into a novel in progress. And now I am really mad at myself that I didn’t just write an all original novel with all original characters that I can sell and instead had to borrow some heavily used and abused characters from someone who, let’s face it, can’t even fucking write. Lesson learned.

This thing has a drop dead date. I’m going to have a first draft done by 2/26 and I’m not going to dedicate the time to do a rewrite. I can’t allow it. Instead I’m allowing myself to make the story go from one end to the other just to prove to myself I can actually write a novel.

I have always, forever and ever, wanted to write a novel. I knew that I could write. Not just blog posts, song lyrics, progress notes or training curriculum, either. I can actually write fiction. I am no literary marvel (that would be Mr. Myg/Wisermom/aka Alex).  But I can put words together in a way that might interest you and motivate you to keep reading. I just haven’t done it in a very long time.

Writing this thing (oh Jesus, let’s just call it what it is already, a fucking fan fic) is embarrassing in its all encompassing hold on my attention. My poor children. I am near them when I am with them, but all the while my mind is working on this scene or that plot detail or this exchange. If I was writing something not a fucking fan fic, this might seem not so bad, like, I was really absorbed in the creation of something worthwhile. As it is, it feels a lot like sneaking twinkies into your lunch bag, eating them at your desk with the door closed, hoping nobody comes in to chat.

It would make no difference if I wasn’t busy, you see. But I. Am. So. Fucking. Busy. I have two babies. I have a job with work that has to get done. I am training to become faculty at University of Phoenix. I have a show to play on March 5th. And yet, my mind is always, always working on this fucking thing.

Such it is when you’re damned with obsessive/compulsive traits. So pass the crack pipe. It’s no sleep until 2/26.

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On love, obsession, stories.

by Myg on January 10, 2010

I’m having one of those, Wait a minute, what the fuck? Kind of evenings. Because I’ve gotten myself totally obsessed over a story. Just a story. A teen love story, no less. Maybe you’ve heard of it? It involves the Pacific northwest, vampires, high schoolers and a pack of indigenous wolves. You know the one, right?

I went with my friends from over at Twitarded to see New Moon today. LOVED. IT. More than I dared to hope I would, after reading it. And yeah, sheesh, there are some moments in that movie where an extremely well built underaged male is running around shirtless and I had to shake off the awkward, all the while, JJ (aka @JennyJerkface) is sitting to my right half muttering, half chanting “He’s not 18, he’s not 18, he’s not 18!” We snickered, and I remembered neither am I, not by a long shot.

I don’t care, really, about all the feminist controversy surrounding Twilight™ etc. Maybe I should, I haven’t really gotten that deep into my analysis of my reaction to it yet. All I can tell you is I love it, despite the fact that, (and I’m sorry, but, really) Stephanie Meyer is a mediocre writer at best (and I’m being generous here, silencing my inner literary critic altogether). But Meyer really does get something about girls and about the kind of love girls crave.

That would be the all consuming kind.

And you know what? Maybe the yearning for an all consuming passionate love does fade when girls grow into strong, independent women and hit marriage and motherhood and middle age.

Or maybe it doesn’t.

Maybe instead of fade, it just gets buried under all that stuff, like your keys in the growing pile of undone laundry, and then maybe a story like Twilight comes along and just sort of blows the pile away, uncovering what was always there.

All kinds of awesome. All kinds of thinking going on.

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Movers, shakers.

by Myg on January 6, 2010

Sit STILL!

Do you know how many drafts of unfinished blog posts I have sitting in my wordpress dash? Three hundred fourty eleven. Truth be told, I don’t even know, but it’s a lot.  I’ve had a lot to say, but as yet have been unable to say it. Therefore, a bullets post.

  • Dude, you have no idea how busy I’ve been, what with the show, the holidays, a crazy amount of work to finish by year’s end and all that parenting stuff. You probably do know, but you may not know what an added layer of insanity the show was. I’m talking about being up every night until 1am or so practicing my guitar through headphones so I could possibly not suck after not playing for so long. The sleep deprivation reminded me of how much I need sleep to not just be an asshole to everyone. Up until 1am is not so bad until you remember your kids are up at 7am every day, NO MATTER WHAT, unless it’s today and they’re up at 6 for no god damned reason. And I know – we are lucky that our kids sleep like this. The question is, are we stupid for playing a show when we have no time to play our guitars?
  • Stupid or not, here we come.
  • I don’t know what that means in terms of us playing future shows. Don’t read into it.
  • Do you see that picture above? Those monsters are my sons, Doot and Bing. They will be a year old on the 22nd of this month. I cringe when I think of it. They are SO BIG (\0/). 
  • Every day I whisper quietly into their soft hair, “Can you stay my baby just a little while longer? Please?” I try not to say it audibly most of the time because I don’t want them to grow up with a complex. I don’t *really* want a 35 year old Doot and/or Bing living with me or off me. Okay, that’s a lie. I secretly dream of having my kids live with me forever and that at least one of them will get some girl pregnant in high school so I can marvel at a grandbaby while I can still walk without a cane. I’m actually not even sure if I’m kidding about that.
  • That’s fucked up.
  • Doot has 8 teeth. Bing has 2 and a half.
  • They eat EVERYTHING. They are great eaters. Messy as shit though.
  • This post is so ”eh” right now I’m going blind.
  • Fuck it, I’m posting it anyway.

It was nice to see you again. Thanks for reading.

Oh, and a little PS bullet, that has nothing to do with this post.

  • To my friend, Ms. Snarkier Than You over at Twitarded, OH MY GOD. I’m incredulously doped up on Twilight (the book). I made Alex (Mr. Wisermom) go out and buy me New Moon last night (which I haven’t seen yet, even though some innocent yet asshatish youngster told me the ending yesterday when she saw I was reading Twilight. Doh!) because I was getting too close to the end and, ugh, how can I be sagaless? As soon as I post this, I’m closing my office door and busting out New Moon. I need some “me” time.

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