This is likely my last pregnancy entry, as I’m going to be induced in a couple of hours.
I am feeling quite an eclectic mix of things right now. Scared, yeah. Excited too. Like I’m about to walk off a cliff, too.
I’m not focused on the pain as much as the unknowns. I know it will hurt. I have no idea how much or how I’ll tolerate it. Hopefully I’ll tolerate it just fine with a few pharmaceuticals.
My biggest fear is how the boys are doing and how’ they’ll do during the process. I pray that they tolerate it well and that their bodies are developed enough to have a good start to life.
I am very excited hold them in my arms.
I am a little sad that this very, very sacred time of carrying life inside me is coming to a close now.
But I also know this. It’s time.
Last entry in my pregnancy diary, 1/21/09
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An amazing year with an amazing start. One year ago exactly at the time I’m writing this, you were just about to get an epidural. Yikes. Thank you so much for going through all of that and what followed to get our boys here. I love you.
You’re welcome, Alex. But you owe me.